Motherhood

I love my baby. She is beautiful and fabulous, and overall, really easy to take care of. Last night, when I was trying to put her to bed I was nursing her and singing to her, and she stopped nursing, looked and me, smiled and started singing with me. It was the sweetest thing! But, then she wouldn't go to sleep last night, we finally brought her into our bed at around midnight- her bedtime is 8:30, so 3 1/2 hours of rocking/singing/feeding later, we don't believe the cry it out method is good for any babies, especially not one that's not even three months old yet. She didn't sleep well last night, cried on and off a lot, even in bed with us, woke up at 3 and we didn't get her back to sleep until after 4. She's been crabby this morning too- I tried to take her to weight watchers with me (for the second time this week, but that's a whole nother story) and had to leave right after I got there because she wouldn't stop crying- I couldn't get her to nurse, nothing. I knew she was just too tired, but still, I hate hearing her scream like that. And I feel bad for interrupting the meeting. I know I need to get used to it- be sensitive to other people, but the child is going to cry as her main form of communication for the next 6 or so months, so...